Just Wondering

I have noticed a certain pattern in my life.  When life gets really busy, planning for a vacation on top of regular life busy, my time alone with God seems to be the thing that suffers the most.  When this happens. I find myself spitting out spiritual cliches without any real meaning, or starting to doubt.  Not God, but myself, my choices, the things that used to bring peace.  Of course!  How can anything bring peace when the only way to have any at all is to be in communication with Him?  Peace, at least for me, doesn't always come from doing right things versus wrong things, but from where I am standing in light of Him.  When I pull away, I am sad, lonely, angry.  All the things I'd be all the time had He not shed His grace on me. 

Getting back in the groove is hard sometimes.  Especially when the church I attend has become a difficult place to go and feel great about everything.  It's a time of questioning for me, and I'm anxious to be settled. 

So I guess what I'm endlessly posting about here is the fact that the cycle of regular time away with God is my peace, I haven't had it so I have none, I have none so everything feels funky, everything feels funky so I spin my wheels.....and on goes the cycle until I get on me knees again.  I wish someone would come up behind me and give me a good push!!!

And oh ya, I was just wondering if this happens to anyone else out there?

Thanks for listening!

Comments

[corry]

Yes it does:-)
The more time I spend without Him, the more I start relying on myself, which results in more mistakes and a greater opportunity for the great deceiver to twist my mind. In other words, it makes it so much harder to stay focused on God's word and will and to live it.

So.....giving you a good push! (grin)

Luv ya, dear sister.

God's Grace.

[Ernest]

I have found when things get foggy, just like when you are driving, you slow down, don't make any crazy decisions, but stay on the last known true path. And when the fog clears, you get your bearings, get back in touch with the Father, and refresh the faith you exercized in the fog. That's what I do, anyway.

When it comes to church, remember the Lord said it is for the sick, not the "perfect." I think anywhere you go you will find those who will offend at church! You may be there to set a good example for them by showing them steadfastness and love.

But listen to your heart and mind, that is where God speaks. He may be nudging you to a better place for you and your family. After all, they come first. God's speed!

[Karyn]

Ernest, as usual great, amazing and wise words! Thanks for your seemingly endless supply of them!

Corry, Consider me pushed! Thanks for loving enough to do it! By the way, it only hurt a little.

love to you guys!

[Patti]

All the time