I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that when I'm hurting I turn to the book of Psalms. I learned a long time ago that life is not always pretty, and clearly, in His grace, God provided a way to show us how even a man after His own heart prayed during those times. I just have to add here how I'd love to be known as "a person after God's own heart".
I've made no secret of the fact that certain things have happened lately, both in my real world as well as my cyber world that have been painful. I don't blame anyone, I'm a big girl and have made lots of mistakes, but OUCH! So as I sought those versus to remind me that God is here with me in these times, I had a light bulb moment. (Corry, I give you permission to remind me of what I'm about to right when I start whining!) Every time I read about "the wicked prospering" I read after how it is God who deals with that and my job to "trust in the Lord and do good", Psalm 37:3. Over and over, as David shares the fear and pain he is feeling he is reminded how he is required to continue in faith and not fret, not allowing those who sought to cause him harm either give him an excuse to sin, especially in the form of seeking his own justice, or rob him of the fact that his joy, his provision is in the Lord alone. It didn't mean that David didn't feel the pain of betrayal or the fear of what his enemies had planned for him. We are allowed to feel. We are allowed to fear. It's how we handle those emotions that can either rob us of our joy or strengthen our faith. Pain, betrayal, deliberately aimed attacks are going to hurt. Loss and the pain that goes along with it are a huge part of my story. The fallenness of our world dictates that even brother will turn against brother, and those are very painful wounds. The dictate to trust and continue in good works is very clear.
I've struggled with time. Time spent worrying, time spent in anger, frustration, fretting. We may be eternal beings, but until we reach Heaven we are governed by the laws of life here, and we cannot get time back. I'd rather spend mine trusting God than fretting over evil doers.